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    He looks like he does on screen, black emo hair a little like a very attractive bird’s nest, with yellow-checkered cat ears on his head, but unmistakably Phil. Dan is shocked, genuinely, that not everyone here falls head over heels for this man immediately. Surely they must. Surely they’re just doing a better job than Dan is at keeping it in. Maybe he’s not gay, maybe this is just what Phil does to people.

    “Hi,” Phil says. “You’ve got nice whiskers.”

    Dan chose the safety of a girlfriend over Phil, and now he meets Phil in real life for the first time at a YouTuber meetup. And for the first time. And for the first time. And for the- It's a time loop fic.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    Chapter 13

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    It was inevitable if the technology existed that it would be used and it would be abused. Given that, wasn’t it better for Phil to be a part of the Dollhouse, making sure that the Dolls were kept safe, than out there in the world obliviously letting the abuse happen? At least, that’s what he had to tell himself to come to work every morning.

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    Phil Lester is a "Handler" at the Dollhouse, an underground organization that offers their elite clientele access to programmable human "Dolls": real people stripped of their memories and re-coded to become the objects of fantasy or nightmare. Phil's job is to protect his assigned Doll, Delta, from those same clients.

    Phil's good at his job, and so is Delta, until someone from the Doll's past life recognizes him in the field. In order to cover it up, the Dollhouse makes an unusual decision: reprogram Delta with his original Personality, at least for a little while.

    And so Daniel Howell wakes up. And nothing is how he expected.

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    OR: The Dollhouse AU. Please read the opening Author's Note for further context, but no worries, this fic stands alone from the show, contains no spoilers, and requires no background knowledge.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Chapter 2

  3. Public Bookmark 48

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    Phil has known so many versions of Dan across time, and he has loved them all in their own ways.

    But none of them was this one: his Dan, sprawled beside him in a Las Vegas hotel room two weeks after his twenty-first birthday, who is sharp and unsure and sometimes infuriating, who gives hickeys to his older self and then pretends it was nothing. This one, tonight, is the one Phil loves most of all.

    A canon-inspired time-travel AU featuring secrets, yearning, self-hatred, self-love, a three-way in Vegas, and Phil Lester's unwavering belief in the red string of fate.

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    07 May 2026

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    Chapter 9

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    The AU where Phil stopped posting Youtube videos in the summer of 2009, before he ever knew who Dan was. Phil's life heads into a different direction that leads to the stable life he has at 35 years old. Phil is stuck in an unfulfilling relationship with a busy lawyer. Everything changes when Phil unknowingly inserts himself into a rookie lawyer, Dan Howell's, life. The wheels of fate that stopped moving in the summer of 2009 are in motion again and Phil sees what his life should have been like for all of these years.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Chapter 23

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    There’s an itch under Dan’s skin, the way there always is when he goes to visit his mother. Just a little thing, uncomfortable, like the world has tipped gently sideways. The infrequent occasions where he does go to visit, he nearly always goes alone. For obvious reasons.

    (2017. dan and phil go to visit dan’s mum, and dan nearly can’t bear it.)

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    30 Jun 2026

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