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Can't Part the Sea, Can't Reach the Shore by forensicleaf
Fandoms: Spider-Man - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Marvel
09 Jun 2025
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"What sounds more likely to you? It's not a trick, I'd genuinely like to know what you think. Is it more likely that you were bitten by a radioactive spider on a field trip, and that by some miracle this didn't kill you, instead gifting you with fantastical abilities, or that you witnessed something deeply tragic and extremely traumatising — traumatising for anybody, but especially so for a child — and your brain formed this fantastical world as a way to cope?"
Peter doesn't answer. Around the lump in his throat, he can't. He sets his jaw, but a hot tear rolls down his cheek anyway, followed by another, and another.
"I'm not crazy," he whispers.
"Of course not, you're simply unwell."
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When Peter finds himself in an unfamiliar place, with no memory of how he came to be there, they tell him he has relapsed. They tell him Spider-man is just a character he invented to cope with trauma, that everything that has happened to him over the last two years is a figment of his imagination.
But Peter knows the truth.
Doesn't he?
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Bookmarked by phail
29 Jun 2026
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it’s not discontinued, but not finished yet either. But you get your ass that ain’t gonna stop me from re-reading this!!!!! This fic is so good I always come back to it.
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He never planned on keeping the pill a secret from Phil because he never planned on Phil and him living together so comfortably for over 3 years. He'd banked on a year maybe a year and a half before they went their separate ways. He'd only banked on 2 months max before Phil found out what the pills were for. Dan couldn’t believe it was 2015 and Phil didn’t know yet.
Or the one where Dan was born female and refuses to tell anyone.
*This fic was written by an author who has since detransitioned, please consider supporting trans writers before choosing this fic to read*
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Bookmarked by phail
26 Jun 2026
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read this YEARS ago and I still remember it. Amazing fic.
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Companions Through Life by phriendlyghost
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
12 May 2026
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"I'm not pretending that I know what you need," Phil nuanced, "but I guess I can say that I know you pretty well—"
Dan's laugh at the euphemism made him pause, a grin tugging at his own lips.
"What I mean is, I imagine it as pressure, you know?" He didn't know himself. He had two degrees but pressure was part of none of them. It didn't matter. "The more you keep the valve closed, the more chances you have to explode—or, I guess, in your case, to get drunk on an entire bottle of wine and cry alone on our balcony."
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What happens when you realise you need to come out but your feelings for your best friend and roommate of ten years get in the way.
Or, the process between writing "Basically I'm Gay" and releasing the video (plus some more).Bookmarked by phail
23 Jun 2026
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Luke is in recovery and has a bad day.
He remembers Luke wailing about how he didn’t want help, he didn’t, not for this, except maybe he did. Maybe he’d been screaming for it for so long that he couldn’t hear himself anymore.
Bookmarked by phail
12 Jun 2023
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Not me once again reading this. And crying. This is too real.
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“Okay, that was unnecessarily complicated” he dusted his hands off on his suit, turning around to make sure the other guy was still webbed to the wall.
Then he felt it. His vision went white for just a moment, his side was warm and wet. The palm of his hand touched the source of liquid and when he pulled it away it was a familiar shade of maroon. Shit. That wasn't supposed to happen tonight.
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Peter is a depressed teen with unhealthy coping mechanisms, and Tony finds out
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Author is projecting onto Peter Parker, making him suffer to avoid my own problems
Bookmarked by phail
12 Nov 2025
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Shorter than I usually read but this is a really good reality of what it’s like to live like this.