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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander has a secret boyfriend, and it’s not Ilya Rozanov. That’s for the best, though, because Shane’s boyfriend is absolutely perfect on paper. He’s also completely on board with the need to keep their relationship out of the press to avoid ruffling any feathers at the MHL commissioner’s office.

    There’s only one problem with Shane’s boyfriend. He’s not Ilya Rozanov.

    (Canon divergence where Ilya and Shane do separate photo shoots pre-rookie season and never hook up. Somehow. So then Shane has a “normal” dating life.)

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    05 Jul 2026

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    "You will bend for me many times, I think, before this production is over."

    Shane means to say no. He means to tell Ilya Rozanov—arrogant Bolshoi principal dancer and professional pain in his ass—to fuck off and stop moving set pieces without permission. Instead, he ends up on his knees in a dressing room, which is definitely not how the Royal Winnipeg Ballet’s stage manager is supposed to handle conflict resolution.

    Three weeks until opening night. One impossible rivalry. And absolutely no way this ends well.

    or: Ilya comes to Winnipeg for The Nutcracker. Shane tries very hard to hate him. The mind-blowing hate-sex doesn’t help.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Ilya blinked at the page for a moment, then looked up at Shane and laughed.

    Shane immediately grew defensive. "Oh, fuck you! I was trying to be nice." He pulled the book back, but Ilya stopped him when he turned to walk away.

    "Shane Hollander."

    "What?"

    "Privet. Hello."

    "Oh." Shane's pronunciation hadn't been remotely close. "And what about...?" He pointed to the Russian phrase he'd overly-ambitiously tried first.

    "Dobroye utro."

    "Ah. Good morning," Shane said sheepishly.

    "Good morning," Ilya repeated with the most genuine smile Shane had seen from him yet.

    - - - - -

    Ilya Rozanov, rising star of the Soviet Union's infamous Red Army team shocked the world in 1989 when he suddenly defected to Canada to play for a mediocre MLH team.

    Shane Hollander, underappreciated and deeply closeted third-liner on said team, was perhaps the most shocked of everyone. The cocky Russian phenom hadn't made the best impression on Shane during a brawl at World Juniors a couple years prior, but when a noticeably sullen Ilya arrived in their locker room, Shane couldn't help but reach out to him.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    “Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.

    Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.

    “Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.

     


     

    Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.

    They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    All fics in this series are standalone and may be read independently or in any order.

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    28 Jun 2026

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    After leaving behind his last job, Ilya threw himself into a new profession: making and selling all things one can pickle. His week revolved around the Sunday farmer's market. Everything seemed simple and predictable until a new vendor arrived late in the season.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Shane has been trying to figure out how to ask Ilya to stop using condoms. He finally works up the courage the night Boston eliminates Montreal from the playoffs.

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    21 May 2026

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    And oh, Ilya was a weak, weak man.

    Because Shane had clearly gotten the wrong advice from someone along the line.

    And as his RA, his mentor and guide in the first year of Shane's college career, he was meant to correct that. Steer his charge clear of such horrible, terrible ideas as asking their “straight” RA to teach them how to kiss behind their boyfriend's back. Say no, malysh, you really don't need to worry about this, your first kiss should be with someone you love and trust and really want to kiss.

    “Okay,” he said, instead, and thought that at least he wasn't going to be sent back to Russia.

    He was going to be sent straight to hell.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    No one would believe it now, but Ilya Rozanov was a shy kid, prone to tears. Small for his age. An easy target.

    After his mother’s death, he threw himself into hockey. He hit a growth spurt. He started lifting weights, became big and strong. Not as big and strong as his older brother, but big enough to make Alexei and the other bullies think twice. Strong enough to fight back.

    (Or: Five times Ilya has to go home to Russia, and one time he chooses to go home to Shane.)
     



    This isn’t what Ilya had in mind when he figured they’d be spending most of their time at the cottage in bed.

    He throws his arm over his eyes and groans. “I am ruining our time together. I am ruining your time off.”

    “No you’re not,” Shane says. “Are you kidding me? I’ve basically been fantasizing about this.”

    Ilya lowers his arm. “About me puking all over your favorite place on earth?”

    “No, you asshole. About taking care of you.”

    Ilya stares at him.

    Shane says, defensively, “What?”

    “I fantasize about you fucking yourself on boring beige dildo,” Ilya says, voice cracking, “and you fantasize about me being sick at your cottage so you can take care of me?”

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    20 Apr 2026

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    “We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”

    It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.

    He can’t breathe.

    (Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)

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    20 Apr 2026

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    “Sure. You want to talk. Let’s.”

    Jane licks between her lips and swallows. Is she swaying towards Rozanova or is Rozanova getting imperceptively closer? Their chests are almost grazing; Jane’s in her loose shirt that barely hides the peaks of her nipples, her body betraying its interest, and Rozanova’s breasts exposed by the seemingly bottomless hemline of her dress. 

    Jane can’t stop staring. She’s staring still when she asks, “Do you want to… sit? Maybe?”

    And then Rozanova is stepping forward, removing any distance they had between their bodies and forcing Jane back against the door. Jane is momentarily surprised by how well they fit together. Rozanova is taller, curvier and yet their bodies slot together perfectly. Softly. 

    It’s different than a man— Jane has tried and tried over the last year to make that work. But they are all hard, unyielding planes and Rozanova’s body is still strong, but her muscles ripple like a gentle current rather than a rough tide. 

    “Not really.”

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Lily: It is too dangerous to be alone with concussion. I will stay at your apartment like nurse.

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    Shane goes to Montreal for the weekend during his concussion recovery. So does Ilya.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    "Baby," Ilya coos, moving his hands to guide Shane's hips. "You need to slow down, or you are going to come like this."

    "No," Shane whines. "No, I'm not. M'fine… just give me a minute." The words come out mushed, slurred together and obscured by Shane's heavy breathing. "We're gonna, we're gonna have sex. I need you inside me."

    "Okay," Ilya says, disbelieving.

    ———

    A drunk, handsy Shane chases his release on Ilya's lap

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    15 Apr 2026

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    “My problem,” Ilya starts, settling himself in Shane’s eyes before flitting around his face, “I liked it too much.”

    “And there is barista— very cute barista that I’ve befriended,” He watches how Shane’s face shifts, “He is sweet like маленький пончик, and I don’t ever want to forget him.”

    Shane breaches the silence, tentatively saying, “Do you want that problem to go away?”

    Ilya peers at him, “No. Never.”

    or, there’s a new barista at Ilya’s favorite cafe, and he’s eager to figure out what makes him so sweet.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    "You have been playing like this?" Ilya mused. "With this? For how long?"

    Hollander's mouth was flat. "Two weeks."

    "Wow." Ilya let out a low whistle. "Pussy makes you better at hockey."

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    14 Apr 2026

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    What hit Ilya first was the smell. It was unmistakably sex. "Hollander," he said into the living room, "you are having an orgy?"

    No answer, but there was noise. Ilya followed his nose and ears up to the bedroom, where Hollander was on his back fucking himself on his fingers.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    “Seeing you smile like that, it makes me want to give you all of this,” he called out, making a sweeping gesture across the ice.

    Shane turned back to look at him, eyes bright, and laughed. “Canadian Tire Centre? I know you’re rich, Rozanov, but an entire arena is a pretty big real estate investment.”

    Ilya pushed off, skating to a stop in front of him, knowing his expression had morphed into something serious. “Hockey, Hollander. It should have been yours.”

    Or, everything that happens when your dreams don’t come true.

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    14 Apr 2026

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    Ilya spits, and Ilya swallows.

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    12 Apr 2026

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