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    “Be careful,” Shane frets, one hand hovering over Ilya’s shoulder. “It’s icy, and I don’t want to be a widower.”

    “Oh, we’d have to be much higher than this for the fall to kill me,” Ilya says, gaze still fixed on the cool black skyline. “At least seven stories.”

    It’s not until much later, as the waitress is clearing the dishes from dinner, that Yuna finds herself wondering why Ilya knows exactly how high a fall needs to be in order to kill him. 

    Or: Yuna learns about Ilya's past bit by bit over the years.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    On June 24th, 2022, during game seven of the Stanley Cup finals, Ilya Rozanov takes a skate blade to the thigh and bleeds out on the ice.

    The next morning, Shane wakes up in his husband's arms. It's June 24th again, and Ilya is still alive.

    Now Shane just needs to figure out how to keep him that way.

    Or: Shane gets stuck in a time loop.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “Do you have any tattoos?” he asks; Rose has good taste, maybe she knows an artist-

    “See, this is why I know you’re gay. We’ve literally been naked together Shane, and you can’t even remember the tattoo I have on my hip?” she sounds exasperated, but Shane, after a hurried moment recalling, frowns.

    “You don’t have a tattoo on your hip.” he argues.

    Rose laughs.

    “Yeah, but you had to really think about it, didn’t you?” She teases. “How many tattoos does your lover boy have?”

    “Just the one, on his chest. I don’t think he likes it though.” Shane answers immediately, before realizing that he’s proven Rose’s point.

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    JJ didn't think the others saw it. Hayden, maybe, but Jackie was the only WAGs's name Shane had committed to memory so Hayden never brought it up. JJ didn't have a wife or girlfriend. He had his hookups and the names of the best restaurants in each city they player in. If JJ had a dog, Shane would probably mix its name up with Drapeau's. The others didn't get that however pathetic or sad they might think Shane, Shane thought the same of them tenfold when they missed shots at practice or ate fast food on weekdays. Shane wasn't being prissy or funny when he said, don't embarass me—JJ still doesn't know exactly what it was, but he doesn't care to find out.

    Shane had poured everything into his team (possessively: it was his team) and he asked them to give it back that day, so they delivered. When Shane smiled at them afterwards, it felt like love.

    Character study on neurotic batshit hardass Captain Shane Hollander. The awe-inspiring and aloof Canadian Hockey Jesus Shane Hollander. Unwilling MLH sex icon Shane Hollander, the face on many mens' dart boards.

    or, JJ on the enigma of (his feelings for) Shane Hollander over the years.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Ilya’s fingers trace a feather-light path across Shane’s collarbone.

    “Or maybe,” Ilya says slowly. “You are jealous of her.”

    Shane twists, a token kind of struggle; Ilya hardly budges.

    “No,” Shane says.

    Ilya makes a thoughtful sound.

    “Are you sure? Marly is big, strong hockey player who played in Boston. Just your type.”

    “Fuck off,” Shane says, but it’s no good when his traitorous dick is obviously hard, positioned just where Ilya’s hips are resting on Shane’s own. Ilya grinds down, just a little, and Shane’s breath catches. Almost without thinking, he’s straining upwards, trying to get Ilya to kiss him. When their mouths are nearly close enough to touch, Ilya says —

    “You want me to tell you about it?”

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    5 times Ilya suggests someone for a fantasy threesome while they're fucking, and 1 time Shane does.

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